On The Brink of Going Insane, January 25, 2009, 7:20AM

On The Brink of Going Insane

Current mood:calm

I am such a fucking hypocrite.

I say I hated smoking and don't like people around me smoking...

Yet what was I doing not even 5 minutes ago???

Smoking a damn cigarette!

But I was feeling really bad like I was about to go completely insane because of all the chaos around me and I was craving one like crazy.

Bad thing is I want another one.  It made me sane again, even cleared my head.

It burned at first but then it started feeling soothing.

Why do I have to be such a fucking hypocrite?

I tell people they can't do things around me or that I hate that they do certain things yet I turn around and do it myself.